i wish

moved on

no more updates here..

my blog dah pindah..

nak adress? cari sndiri! haha..

so, good bye old homie..

dear readers, try to catch me if you can.. ngahahahaha..

takdela sbnrnye segan.. “rumah” baru kami buruk, takde perabut, takde ape lg.. so tggula.. dah okayh sket nnt aku wat la “housewarming”.. ngahahahah~

so, tata~

assalamualaikum~

screaming inside

assalamualaikum!

hello there~ dah bersawang blog nih. ades..

dear blog, i miss u like hell! i’ve been thinking bout your for quite sometimes but unfortunately, my lappy rosak so i cant be with you.. to be honest, i kinda feel the pain in my heart as i can hardly tell what i feel to anyone around me.. and that is so sad.. and painful.. so i really need you.. but i just have to be patient.. in 2 weeks (more or less), i’ll be with you again.. but we are going to move to a new “house”.

right now, i feel like lempang-ing someone’s face. and yell at his/her face

“grow up u SOB/B! u ain’t no little kid that needs to be taken care. and also, act like your age, as in dont expect me or anyone else to jaga your hati and respect you, nak kene sembah mcm permaisuri, sume pon nak kene berjemput, and so on! ko ingt ko nenek/atuk aku ke? justtttt… go to __________________ (fill in the blank, tak kesahla penuh sume ke tak penuh ke). one more thing, dont be too effing annoying!”

thank you my dearest blog for giving me the space to actually scream my heart out. syukria!

sekian mekasih.. esok aku ade paper physio and lusa biochem, and practical on khamis and jumaat.

then holiday.

i’m off

i’m sorry. it’s better be this way than i actually go and lempang and scream at that person’s face.

sayonara~

so this is it.. i’m leaving.. bye2 malaysia and those people i love so much in malaysia..

maybe nnt nak tuka pkai blogspot lak lar.. buhsan sungguh pulak kt cni.. hoho..

so people, maafkan segala salah silap dan halalkan lah segala2nya..

doakan semoga ku selamat pergi dan kembali..

tata~

gonna miss u~

p/s: aku nak keraskan hati aku.. no tears please!!!! hohho.. we’ll see

selamat~

assalamualaikum..

WARNING: post kali ini mempunyai unsur2 kegedikan yang agak melampau.. kalau anda jenis yang allergic dengan kegedikan, sila sediakan plastic beg untuk muntah atau baca berdekatan ngn toilet supaya senang nak muntah.. takpon takyah baca. abis cerita.

dear Blog,

i miss you la B..

(tetibo lak en.. hahahahha..  mula dah nak gedik neh.. tettttttttt)

no, seriously, i miss u B.. and i know you miss me too.. tapi i nyampah la B.. everytime i nak start tulis kt u je kan, ade je bende mengganggu.. diorg mmg jeles la ngan hubungan kite kan B.. u nak tahu siape yg ganggu i tu supaya senang u nak belasah nnt? KEMALASAN, KETIADAAN MOOD dan yang paling penting adalah KESERABUTAN!

so now B, diorg takde.. now i can spend some time with you.. (suke la tu kan3.. haha)

okayh.. dah2.. aku sndiri rase cam nak muntah ngan kegedikan aku sndiri.. ades..

erm.. ingat nak cerita pasal raya.. tapi tak apalah.. aku ingat nak wat raya diaries lg.. so tggu dah seminggu raya nnt bru nak tulis.. i’ll sumbat my whole activities of the week.. hehe

so now.. not much i guess.. i just want to wish everyone

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN =)

dan ye, rakan2, anda dijemput hadir ke mjlis kecil-kecilan  yang bonda dan ayahandaku adakan pada 27 hb ini di kg baru.. maleh la nak story cni.. untuk pertanyaan lanjut sila call ye.. ape nombornya? tnye sila ke kaunter pertanyaan.. ahahhahaha.. pndai2 la eh..

aha! lupe nak update pasal MSU/ IMS MS ramaiah, bangalore india..

owh puan Ayu terchenta bilang, flightnyer udah confirm pada 11 october 2009.. bukan pada 2 october seperti yang guwe bilang pada kalian dahulu.. so i have few extra days to spend more with my loved oneS.. Alhamdulillah..

erm.. pasal enrtance exam arituh.. masyaAllah… hahahahhahahaha.. sumpah la weyh susah gaban.. puan Ayu kate soalan sejibik cam sample question.. tapi tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! Puan Anis siap gelakkan kitorg lagi tuh.. lawak weyh.. hahahah! sumpah test tu susah weyh..  most of us mmg hentam keromok ler.. bio, and chem okayh lg kot.. math die.. awal2 thn lg.. blakang2 tu bile bab2 parabola, hyperbola sume tuh dah tak tahu lah.. physic lg lah.. meno ngan jat jwb sepuluh minit je 40 soalan tuh trus blah.. ngahahahhaha! mmg tak tahu lansung.. hahah.. layan je la..

borang2 MARA pon dah setel sume.. tggl nak dpt duet je.. ngehehe..

and beli barang! yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!

wait.. did i just say “yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!”?

ahahahhaha… ya right! “pale hotak hang” - bak kata mak tatkala keadaan berserabut sebelum masuk ke simpang sunway piramid.. ngahahaha!  tp btol la aku cam sumpah malas gile nak shopping.. serabut.. i hate making decision.. tambah2 bile byk pilihan kan.. kalau boleh yang tuttttttttttttttt pon aku nak suh mak aku pilihkan.. haaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! sumpah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! leceh la.. masalah sungguh la aku neh.. wahai FARIHAH AZWA PAIDIN, kenapa kau cerewet tahap panna nih???!!! udah2 ler tuh.. mak abah tak pernah ajar kau jadi cerewet okayh.. mane belajar neh? pengaruh rakan sebaya ke? pengaruh internet ke? ades..  ntahla.. mmg aku ni mcm ni kot.. kdg2 tu aku tak mahu cerewet tapi nnt menyesal.. adoih..tapi pape pon aku bersyukur atas kesabaran mak and akak aku yang follow “hangin” kepala aku nih time shopping tuh.. hehe.. i love you guys so much tapi tahla bile aku nak berubah menjadi anak yang taat dan adik yang patuh.. dan yang paling penting lebih penyabar! thank you ya Allah kerana mengurniakan meraka dalam hidupku.. kalau dgn org lain cnfirm aku dah kene lempang..  sbb tu aku tak dgn org lain.. kan2.. Alhamdulillah.. =)

erm.. i’m counting days now.. tolak hari ini.. tinggal lebih kurang 17 hari lagi.. dlm otak aku ade la beberapa tempat yang aku nak pegi kt kl nih sebelum aku fly.. tapi ntahla.. mcm tak sempat je.. tp pk2 balik mcm la aku tak balik lnsung msia smpai aku abes blaja 2015 nnt.. takpelah.. aku dah plan dah nnt balik msia aku nak holiday kt mne.. ahahahahahahhaahha! pergi pon belum dah pk nak balik.. apekah? sengal3..

(mari kembali kepada mood gedik)

erm B, itu jelah kot i nak story ngan u.. oklah kan.. at least terubat la kerinduan i pada u.. and yg plg penting kerinduan u pada i kan2.. takpelah B, u jgn risau okayh..

until then B, see you later~ muah2

p/s: kepada “anak murid”, sila ambil perhatian pada bahagian2 yang gedik tersebut.. wat case study.. hahaha!

kenape lah kamu tak continue je nyanyi lagu hindustan tu? tapi takpe.. those 2 seconds would be more than enough to make me smile for the next 2 or 3 hours..  thank you =)

changes

people change.. and yeah.. we do..

and that is one thing that i fear the most at this moment.

the CHANGING of heart..

i keep saying “ala, nnt lupe la kt wawa nih.. manusia berubah.. percayalah”

dengan penuh keyakinan..

and you always reply ” mmg la manusia berubah.. wawa pon same jugak nnt.. percayalah”

pergh! amek ko.. terkena pula.. you were right.. i was talking as if i’m not gonna change at all.. only you will change and forget about me..  but what if it is me who change and forget you? astaghafirullahalazim.. nauzubillah.. what a selfish me! to all my friends.. i hope i will not.. and sorry if i did.. you know i never meant to do so.. just yesterday someone asked me if i already change.. alahai.. pertanyaan yg agak menggemparkan dan i think quite comel as the person went straight forward.. =D

on top of everything..i guess.. i’m just too paranoid..

in one day, i saw 3 big changes of heart.. one towards “kebahagiaan” and the other 2 towards “perpisahan”..

people change.. and that includes me! i’ll keep that in my mind..

mahatma ghandi once said

” be the change you want to see in the world”

peace V(^_^)V

p/s: ending die cam takde kene mengena je.. ngahahahahahha.. takperlah.. pesanan ikhlas tuh..

do i really have to say it?

i hate it..

i dont know how to make you understand it, to make you see it..

though i never say it, but i really hope you can feel it.. or cant you?

i hate it when you are doubting my “good mood” or “good attitude” towards you.. why cant you just enjoy it?

do i have to justify every single move i made?

i guess u never really knew me.. so be it~

namaste.. mera nam he.. hehehehehheheeh~ (n_n)

assalamualaikum~

yeah, it’s been a while since i last wrote on my wishing well.. I’m sure lots of you (bloggers) must have been in the same situation as me, where we don’t really have anything to write.. kosong! and there’s the time when we have tonnes of things to write, and yet, when i came across those time, i’ll choose as necessary.. or maybe i’ll put it all in one entry.. hehe

so for the past three weeks (almost), i was in the first situation i mentioned just now.. and still am.. but my jari-jemari is soooooooo gatalllllllll ( just like me) so i really feel like i have to write something..and here it goes.

first of all, Alhamdulillah. i’m gonna further my degree in INDIA. while most of my friends (the uk, eire, ceczh people) are just waiting for the flights, i’m just about to get started. zuleyka baby told me, 1st Sept collect offer letter from puan Ayu yang ku chentai~ 7th Sept- predeparture briefing~ 8-9 Sept got interview and entrance exam ( buat cukup syarat jek.. sample question nnt puan Ayu kasi.. chill la~ tpi cuak gak senanyer.. hesh!) ~ 29th Sept- 1st Oct got briefing at MSU, and finally 2 Oct- Fly bebeh fly~

erm.. well..to be honest, i’m freaking excited bout me going to India.. mulut celupar aku nih telah dimakbulkan.. hahahaha~ i once jokingly said to my friend at KMB ” ahh, susah2 aku g india je la weyh.. leyh gak kalo aku nak merase g everest.. dekat je tu..haha” haaaaa~ kan dah dpt! itulah.. Allah knows what’s best for you kan Wawa.. saaaaayaaaannnnggggg Allah! muah2! (korang ingt nak gedik2 kat bf/gf je ke? gedik2 ngan Allah lg best tau! =D)

so, this means that i have about another 1 month before i go.. and that also means that i’m going to celebrate my hari raya here in malaysiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa with my familyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.. jeles tak? ahak3..  duet raye pon pastilah byk.. iyelah, kan saya udah mahu pergi.. hehe.. kepada yang tak sempat nak beraye kat msia thn ni.. bawak2 la bersabar.. dan juga, bawak2 la kuih raye sikit kalo muat lagi luggage tu.. hehe

anyway, i also feel scared at the same time.. ades.. when i was in kmb, i’ve been told stories about surving in uk and ireland.. but none about India.. so, i kinda blurr, tak tahulah nak expect ape.. but people keeps telling me, doing medical degree in india is great because i’ll get to be in touch with cadaver like so many times.. wuaaaaaa~ i loike~ ingat lagi time bedah tikus harituh.. aku smpai korek bijik mate die, and cube sedaye upaya nak kuarkan otak tikus tuh.. eheh~ mule2 aku cuak tp bile dah lame2 tuh aku kalo boleh nak belah sume! ahahahhaha~ ade jugak org ckp ” kamu belajar medic kat india? cekap lah kamu nnt.. doktor2 kalo yang praktikal neh, yang dr india lebih berani sket.. sbb dah biase sgt pgg2 mayat neh..” and so many more great stories people keeps telling me.. which makes me becoming even moreeeeeeeeeee exciteddddd and even moreeeeeee scareeeeeedddddddd… hua3..  and later, i’m gonna give my phone number to kotie, so that she can call me and tell me more bout INDIA~ she even said she can pick me up at the airport with red carpet tu nyah oi~ hahahahah

and people who are leaving soon.. i’m sad.. waaaa… korang nak tgglkan aku~ huhu.. owh speaking bout feeling sad.. erm.. ades.. abah o abah.. once the list name was out, i showed it to my abah.. and he was happy.. but later that evening, he was joking with my sister ” adik dah nak pegi neh.. kaki abah dah lemah dah nih.. hati dah start sayu dah nih.. jgn marah2.. sedeyh ni.. ” they laughed.. but i just smiled.. in my heart, i feel sort of pain.. mcm kene cucuk jarum yang halus.. terharu, sedeyh dan sebagainyer.. i’m daddy’s girl la weyh.. i’ve told u people umpteen times kan.. haish~ itu baru abah.. belom mak lg.. tapi mak cam control macho je~ lek~ haha! erm.. alang, aji, along, ciko, sheena, my stuffed toys.. and also friends that will just stay at malaysia.. then tibe2 aku teringat lalu aku ckp kat abah.. ” itulah, nasib baik cek pergi india je.. dekat.. kalo pergi uk, jauh tu bah.. abesla abah.. =)” and yeah, he smiled too.. i guess now, not just me but almost everyone is starting to see the “blessing in disguise” about my IB result.. aku sumpah bersyukur sgt2.. time tu aku  jadi cam orang yang jatuh cinta.. aku cam rase Allah tu best sgt3 lah.. terbaik sgt2 lah.. sbb Allah cam plan hidup aku lain sikit dr orang lain.. Alhamdulillahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~and yeah.. aku berazam (nnt azam perasan plak.. tp mmg aku akan ber”azam” pon g india nnt sbb skali kot kitorg~ haha!) bertekad untuk berusaha bersungguh2 di sana nanti.. tak mau main2 sgt dah.. main sikit2 je.. tak mahu nakal2 sgt dah.. nakal sikit2 je.. tak mahu foya2 dah, nak try jadi setia (erm untuk siape ekk? tak kesahlah! aku kalo boleh nak kawen after belajar so takyah ar sape2 nak ngorat aku kalo tak mahu malu direject (bajet ade pulak org nak ngorat aku hahahahahahahha).. kwn2 boleh… hahahah~ ngade~ japgi desperate.. hahahahahahahha)

i want to redeem myself.. watch out u people~ (hahahah poyo bajet smart)

okayhla people.. i think that’s all for now.. saya pasti masih belum terlambat untuk saya mengucapkan selamat berpuasa di bulan ramadhan yang mulia ini.. meh kite kumpul pahala byk2 meh.. i remember once a friend told me ” ye aku faham kdg2 tu mmg susah nak tgglkan perkara2 yang kureng baik nih.. tapi ape yang ko boleh buat adalah dengan menambahkan amal kebajikan ko.. insyaAllah.. kire cam counter balik la~ =)” until then, selamat berpuase sekali lagi.. entah mengapa, bulan puase ini hati jadi tenang, rasa nyaman dan bahagia.. tak ke? try to feel it~ nyaman gitu~

later bebeh! c u when i c u~

it’s only words, and words are all i have..

antara dialog2 yang aku tak boleh blah dlm beberape hari nih.

aku: aji, tuka la tv2.. nak tgk cte pochong tu..

aji: tgk amende kalo sepanjang mase tgn mcm ni *tgn tutup mate*. tu bukan tgk.

aku: ala.. time hantu kuar tutup mate.. tp still dengar je la..

aji: ha kalo mcm tu len kali ckp la ” aji, tukarla la tv2, nak DENGAR cerita pochong tu”.

aku: (T.T)

kawan A: fuck you, stupid cockroach.*dgn nada marah*

kawan B: i wonder how are you going to fuck the cockrach.. but seriously, can you? *dengan muke selambe*

aku: *hanya menggelengkan kepala*

mak: antara tiga2 org kwn cek yang kite bertembung td, sorang je boleh buat calon menantu idaman

aku: erm, nape pulak?

mak: sorang je senyum balik kat mak mase mak senyum kat diorg tadi.

aku: *hampir tersembur lasagna yg aku baru suap*  hahahhahhahahahahahaahah

(ye, sorang je membalas lambaian aku semasa bertembung sedangkan yg dua lagi tu dah satu sekolah ngan aku selama lebih kurang 4 thn.. kecik hati aku.. terima kasihla pada yang melambai semula itu..  =D)

p/s: aku mcm agak lembab la tgk cite prison break. tak abes2 lagi. sbbnyer aku suke dgr dialog dlm cerita tu.. buku ke, movie ke, atau cerita mane2 pon lah.. the words seem to fascinate me.. =) hehe..

bipolar

kes 1:
lokasi: bilik aku kat kmb.. (sape tau no bape.. hehe)
situasi: lepak mkn maggi ngan minum teh kot!

lepas borak2 jap tgh2 mkn megi..

aku: *ckp ape tah..*
p: haahla, wawa nih mmg manje la.. baru aku perasan..
aku: mane ade la weyhhhhh
p: betol.. care ko ckp cam ade la bunyi manje2 sikit. ade ar gaye2 anak bongsu tuh..
aku: yeke.. takdela.. (=.=)

kes 2:
lokasi: imkl setapak
situasi: tgh lepak2 tggu turn nak blaja driving

borak2 pasal family n tunang akak tuh, then..

kak zai: eh awk ni anak bongsu eyh?
aku: haah. anak bongsu dr 4 org.. nape?
kak zai: *sambil menepuk peha aku* patutlaaaaaa
aku: nape?
kak zai: takla.. akak nmpk la muke awk tu muke manje..
aku: mane ade la kak zai nih.. kelakar je.. hahah~
kak zai: eyh betul.. akak tak main2 la.. akak lg tua dr awk kan.. akak tau la..
aku: eh takla akak, saye garang tau..
kak zai: eh engkau, garang la sgt.. pak cik (yg ajar aku driving) naik suare sikit muke awk dah cuak..
aku: itu kes lain ahahahahhaha~

kes 3:
lokasi: signatures, klcc
situasi: lepak2 jap pas kwn aku abes lecture..

borak punye borak…

A: eyh farihah, ko nih manje mengalahkan aku rupenyer..
aku: apsal ko jeles ke? =P ko lagi manje dr aku kot.. ala2 kucing gitu.. haha~
A: takde la.. aku tgk ko dr jauh mse ko smpai td.. muke sombong nak mampus.. kalah diva~ x nmpk lansung la ko nih manje
aku: mmg aku tak manje pon
A: blah la ko weyh~ aku nak balik la mcm ni.. ko mnum la sorg..
aku: touching pulak dah..
A:tapi siyes dowh, kalo orang tak kenal ko sure ckp ko sombong, garang. ko dah ar suke jeling org..
aku: mane adeeeeee laaaaa~
A: tu3.. ko tgk.. bunyik dah manje2 dah..
aku: !@#$. mane de dowh. aku mmg garang ar. ko mcm ar tak biase kene marah ngan aku. aku jeling tuh acah je.. aku tak jeling kat strangers tak tentu pasal la..
A: ye ar ko garang2 garang gak.. tapi garang2 manje..
aku: takyah ar weyh ckp mcm tuh.. aku manje ngan ko je kot.. wahahahahah~ takdela.. member2 rapat aku je tau cane.. tapi takla.. org takut gakla ngan aku.. sbb diorg kate aku cam gangster2 sket..
A: gangster ke~ hahahahhaha tak takut pon~
aku: ko dah kenal aku mmg ar.. cbe ko tak kenal aku sgt.. kenal biase2 je..
A: takde2.. aku nak cop ko budak manje gak..
aku:weyh, tak macho lahhhhhhhhhh~ tak best ar.. nnt org kate cam manje tu same dengan gedik.. tak ke? sbb tu aku kalo boleh nak jadi garang2 je.. biar org ckp aku kasar, asal tak ckp aku gedik.. tapi ko la bengong nak cop aku manje..  jap2, ke ko rase tercabar ni? ahak!
A: agak ar..
A& aku: *gelak gile2 smpai org meja sebelah usha.. sorry ar akak ngan abang oi.. org pompuan kalo bercerite mcm ni lah*

tah ar.. aku rase.. aku mmg mengalami masalah personaliti gak kot.. haha~

bak kata org, “remaja.. zaman mencari identiti..” haha!

penah aku teringat seseorang ckp mcm nih kat bilik tv blok D, time tgh tgk drama kul 6.30 tuh

” aku takleyh doh.. aku try nak jadi lemah lembut weyh, tapi takleyh ar.. die akan jadi gedik ko tau..”
” same ar aku pon”
” yeke wa..aku tgk ko okayh je wa.. tak ar kasar mne ”
” ko tak tau weyh.. tapi siyes ar.. ”

ade jugak tuh, org kutuk care aku berjalan..ala2 gangster sikit, tak cukup ayu, cam ganas2 sket.. cis! takpe korang~

but whatever it is, “i just want to be myself , but a better one”

i do have reasons for everything that i do, but there’s no need for me to tell u about it.. sbb nanti ade la kan rg tu akan ckp.. “tak tnye pon~”

people, feel free to judge/ criticise me.. but again, please, please not too much.. save some for yourself kayh..

p/s: cik farihah azwa paidin, silalah jadi budak baik. tapi nakal sekali sekala itu boleh lagila dimaafkan.
weyhh? ape aku merepek nih? haha~ lantakla.. blog aku kot! haha

mind reader

as the saying goes,

“great minds think alike”

but in our case. i dont know. maybe my mind is not as great as yours, or to be mean, yours is not as great as mine. but to be fair, maybe both of our minds are not that great as to compare to others. swallow it!

p/s: aku punye post sebelum nih pasal Demo ISA tu, aku bercakap mengenai PERHIMPUNAN aka DEMONSTRASI JALANAN itu! bukan pasal ISA pon. aku tak taulah sgt pasal ISA tu.  sumpah aku tak tau sgt. aku cume tak suke akan kekecohan. tak payah la sakit hati dengan aku. sekian~